I Found Myself Again When I Unleashed My Fear 1

I Found Myself Again When I Unleashed My Fear
I sat alone on the stage. In the darkness I unclipped my tie and opened the top button of my tuxedo shirt. My fellow actor H__ passed before me in the darkness. “I have the gun,” she whispered. Over the speakers music played. “I’ve got you/under my skin,” Frank Sinatra crooned. The stage was hot ...

It was a big day in our house.

It was a big day in our house.
I had been laid up with fever for the past five days, shivering and sweating through long nights, weak and irrational during shortened days. My son was sick, too, something any parent knows is perhaps the worst combination to happen. Being sick at the same time as your child is a real challenge. He was ...

Fear the Walking Dead

We live in uncertain times. We wonder about the future, about how we got where we are and what will happen next. How will we survive? How will we protect our families from the onslaught? We debate building walls to keep out people who some of us believe are out to destroy us. Others think ...

Parenting fail: the bite that bit

Parenting fail: the bite that bit
Not a day has gone by in the last several weeks that I haven’t felt like a failure as a parent. I don’t mean failures in the little things, like I forgot to pack lunch for my daughter until the moment we had to leave for school and I scrambled quickly to shove anything into ...

Caught in a Lie 6

School offers free breakfast to all kids, served in the classroom, after the time the kids are officially supposed to be in school but before class technically starts. It’s a great service provided by the county—a free breakfast—and one that we’d gladly take advantage of if it weren’t for m’s size—she has always been a ...

Sequels, I: The Door 1

Sequels, I: The Door
Life is full of firsts. First time walking, first words, first book, first kiss, first love. But life is also about seconds, about sequels. The first time it’s all new and exciting. The second time you get to use your experience from the first, learn from it, and try to do it better. A few ...

Chasing a Rabbit: The 2016 Pemberton Half Marathon 2

Chasing a Rabbit: The 2016 Pemberton Half Marathon
I looked up to see the leader, the guy I’d been chasing for the last six miles. He was moving away from me. I didn’t know if I was faltering or he was moving faster. I knew, in any case, that I had a choice to make. I could push harder and try to keep ...

About a Boy 1

About a Boy
On the plane on the way to Frankfurt I walked my son down the aisle to the bathroom to change his diaper. It was nothing new. I had changed diapers before, and I had done it on an airplane before. But something felt different this time, something struck me as I watched him waddle between ...

Returning Home to Real Life 2

Returning Home to Real Life
Our last few days in China dragged. I wrote about the adoption reality show, and lamented that all any of us wanted was to get home and start our lives together. Still, one thing that is nice about being in a place like that, about living out of hotels and having your life reduced to ...

The Long Day 2

The Long Day
“Why is the steering while on the right?” m asked. We were on our way to the Hong Kong Special Administrative Region, and the van that had come to pick us up had come from Hong Kong. I explained to m that, for more than a century, Hong Kong was ruled by Great Britain. Traffic ...